Buzz Kill

So apparently I'm too negative. Or, okay my posts are negative. I mean...I totally agree. Here's the thing though, what do you want me to write about?? This is life, our country, the world. You can deny it all you want, put a little love in your world, a big old fake smile on your face 24-7 but I'm a Realist. I actually consider myself to be extremely aware of the little things in life. I'm all about it. You know, nature, my family, sleeping in stuff like that. The free stuff. I dig.

Of course that doesn't erase the fact that outside of my own little bubble, things are pretty screwed up. Actually, my bubble gets a little dirty from time to time. That's okay. I'm a regular girl. It happens. Not to worry, things usually have a way of working out. That's pretty much my philosophy. Josh and I have run into so many random problems that we pretty much just let it roll off of us these days. I mean...he'll freak out about new jeans not fitting quite right once he gets them home but for the most part, he's pretty chill. [Hah...love ya babe]

I've found a new hobby in screaming at cats. You just have to do a video search on Myspace for "guy screaming at cats" to find out what I mean. Warning, this is not for the faint of heart. Or...those afraid of a little cursing. The cats are fine. It's the guy you should worry about. Hahaha.

Also, the man has taken to sleeping on his own and not only that, he will take two hour naps by himself in his own crib. If you don't have babies you have no idea why that makes me oh-so happy. Let me just say...It's a winner.

The Quixtar thing...I'm working on it. I haven't read much lately because of the holidays and all. I'm gonna be back on track with everything after the new year, promise. I'm also catching up on some of Ann's articles so...bring on the negative, baby. I guess if you can't stand the heat...well. Whatever. Actually, the ban on negativity that was so big in Quixtar is what made me wary of it in the first place. First they tell you they love you and they're your best friend, BUT you can only talk about the good things in your life? Some best friend. Life is about both ends of the spectrum, and everything in between. It is what it is and you need people who can put up with you in sunshine and rain. That's kind of the point, in my opinion. Find those few people and you're pretty much set. Bad things are gonna happen. Internalizing them does not help. And...if you think I'm good now just wait until I get a therapist. Hah!

I guess I'm really just trying to say this: I don't consider it negative. I consider it the truth. How can the truth be one thing or another? It simply is what it is. You just have to accept that not everything in life is roses, and that's OKAY. A lot of what's happened in my own life so far hasn't exactly been pretty. Does that make my story a negative one? I don't think so.

I guess it's just what you make of it. On one of those stupid survey things I was once asked, "What's the biggest buzz kill?" My answer, Reality. I guess some people prefer to walk around in some kind of life-haze. Not this girl.

Truth, please. And serve it hot.