Humble Pie

Maybe it's maturity kicking in again. It happens every few years, I literally feel myself growing up a little. It's mainly just little realizations, be it ways of living or thinking but whatever it is, something changes. This time I'm learning a little about perspective.

I don't consider myself a bad person. Everyone makes mistakes. I know I'm not as thoughful as some, but the truth is I really do care about people. I don't think I've ever done anyone serious emotional damage (at least, I really hope not) but little things. I won't get into specifics, but people have been doing little things that have hurt me recently. Pretty insignificant things, but at the same time it doesn't feel good to be on the receiving end and I've found myself thinking "Wow, this is a lot like what I did to so-and-so." And shortly after I say, "Ohhhh..." I don't know. I guess it's just a little dose of humble pie, if you will.

I have this friend, she's only a year younger than me but she's not married and she doesn't have any children. She'll be getting married soon and I find her perspective really interesting (and kind of funny). She talks a lot about what it means to be a mom and a wife, even though she's never been either one. I know I did the same thing. See, it's easy to talk a lot of shit when you've never been in that person's shoes. I can remember when everything seemed black and white and I could not wrap my mind around why people did the things they did. Having a little more life under my belt has helped me to keep my mouth shut more often than not, and to try and see things from other people's point of view.

I know Josh and I haven't been married forever and Riley isn't even a year old, but I'm not even pretending like I know what I'm doing anymore. That's right, World, I'm winging it. Just like I always have, only now I'm being honest about it.

This is a short one, as there isn't much to be said. Life lessons, at least for me, are hard learned and certainly not without pain. I like it, though. Pain is a sign of life, after all. So now I'm a little slower to judge and hopefully I'll think a little more before I do things.