Gah!

I'm quite aware that life is not fair. I think you learn that as soon as you start school and you realize your whole life isn't just about naps and cookies and Christmas.

I'm not so surprised when bad things happen to good people. That's just life. It's a sinful world and the actions of bad people are bound to touch the innocent. If not, there wouldn't be crack babies. I mean, honestly.

But what does surprise and irritate the hell out of me is the fact that good things happen to bad people. Where's the justice in that? I've been told time and again that God does not cause bad things to happen to people, he allows it. I don't understand that, but it makes more sense than a supposedly just God allowing good things to happen to people who certainly do not deserve it.

Yes, I believe in punishment. Josh even goes so far as to call me "mean" when I believe people have done wrong and they need to feel the consequences of those actions. I'm not saying that I think I have the right to do the punishing. I never do. Though, if given the chance, I will verbally put people in place who offend me or my loved ones. But that's not what I mean.

I mean whatever happened to plagues and turning people into pillars of salt? Haha...but seriously.

I know I've done some bad things. But really, I haven't. I've never intentionally harmed anyone. I've never gone out of my way to do the wrong thing. I'm the good girl, believe it or not. Yeah, we got into some harmless trouble as kids. No, I didn't wait until I was 21 to have my first drink. I'm not perfect and I know it. I also believe that I have been punished in this world, and that I have more to come when I die. I just know that's how it works.

So how is it that good things happen to bad people? Why??

I just don't have the answer today. Maybe I never will.

Gay, much?

Well I'm totally excited. Ann's coming out with a new book. So I'm very happy, even though I haven't made it all the way through a book since I read "What to Expect when you're Expecting" when I was pregnant like...a year and a half ago. That's bad. I'm a book lover, honestly. But one year old little boys are not so much. Unless the pages happen to have textures and cut-outs and pop-ups. And it really does have to be a combination of all three.

But anyway, I somehow stumbled over the news of this book (soon to come) and it inspired me to check out some of her articles which I haven't done in literally forever. I'm not totally uninformed because we've started to watch the O'Reilly Factor (for which I'll have to comment later. I like it, but I'm not a huge fan). Television is more accessible because I can be cleaning, changing diapers, and playing with Legos and listen at the same time. Maybe I'll order Ann's new book on CD. That worked last time.

But I ran in to her recent article titled "Taze him, bro!". Haha. If you haven't heard of that incident then really, get your head out of your ass. The article wasn't really about that, it was about the Iranian president (Ahmadijad? haha...I don't really care) visiting and giving a speech at Columbia University last week. I find the whole thing pretty ridiculous and offensive, and so does she, but what struck me was this quote from the president:

Responding to a question about Iran's execution of homosexuals, Ahmadinejad said there are no homosexuals in Iran: "In Iran we don't have homosexuals, like in your country. In Iran we do not have this phenomenon. I don't know who's told you that we have it."


The truth is they don't call it gay sex there. They just call it sex.

(By the way, none of the following information is from Ann, these are things I've researched myself).

If you haven't noticed, Middle Eastern men are, to put it mildly, a bit sexist. But it doesn't stop there. Their culture and religion do not allow the women to look like anything other than a burlap sack, really. You see, their belief is that women are only for reproduction. Sex for pleasure? Well that's reserved for the people who really deserve it.

That's right. The guys. Buddies. They're all about the gay sex.

But it's not homosexuality. It's just...sex. haha. Right.

Yeah, but anyway, if you didn't hear the speech or anything about it, it's pretty funny. I mean, you have to have a sense of humor about these things. Apparently, he didn't feel like he was greeted in America with much respect. Though I don't know why he would expect that. He also wants to visit Ground Zero in New York and he wants to make a big deal about it. He's pretty offended that we haven't allowed him that little treasure yet either.

Personally, I think we should. I mean, who could be blamed for his death at the hands of an angry New York mob? It's pretty much your own fault for getting caught up in it.

So I have to go. Riley's playing guitar. Standing up. Alone.