Dirt Roads

When I was a kid, we lived in this underdeveloped beach community where only the main roads were paved. Our road was a mixture of dirt, sand and small stones. Everyone hated it, except me. It reminded me of the beach and the country and even as a child, I loved the simplicity.

Recently I've been reflecting over all the decisions I've made that have brought me this far in life. Even though I think I have a pretty great life, I believe I am largely untapped. Most of the decisions I've made have been out of fear. If I didn't like a job, I stopped going. When someone turned me down, I went back to things tried and true. I haven't done much branching out since I've been a "grown-up". Mostly because the few times that I did resulted in chaos and heart break.

As Josh and I have recently been backed into sort of a corner, I started really wondering what would be different if I had decided to choose a road less traveled. After a lot of talking and introspection, Josh and I have come to a few decisions. We're going back to those dirt roads I should have taken long ago. We're not taking the easy path anymore, just because it may be more comfortable. We owe it to ourselves and our son to make something of our future. And we're very excited about it.

We're moving. I have never been sad to leave any of our other places, but it is time to move on. Mainly we need to focus on our credit and our finances. They are not good. And they need to be good and very soon.

The reason being, I'm going out for the Air Force and they require good credit. Yes, it is very difficult to get into this branch of the military, but it's what I want. There is no doubt in my mind that I can achieve this. Though sometimes I worry if I'll be strong enough, once I'm in. Regardless, it's the best decision for me and my family right now. The benefits are endless. And as a plus, we'll be getting out of here. I'm sick of worrying about my family. They don't seem to care what happens to them so I don't want to be around to see them self destruct.

I've started running a mile a day and my goal is to get it up to two. If there comes a day I could go further, than that'd be awesome. From what Mike tells me, I should also practice in the rain and the heat of the day. Since basics will be held in San Antonio, I'm sure most of the running I do will be in the heat.

Anyway, I thought I'd throw that out there. Josh and I will probably be out of here by mid-August, maybe a little later.

We'll keep you posted.